
So, this is one of my rare thoughtful posts. Be very glad that most of the time I refrain from posting my thoughts and feelings. Let's just say that the last eight months have been quite the learning and growing experience (tacked on to the learning and growing experience of the 2 years previous to that) and leave it at that. I actually composed this almost a month ago and then most of it got lost in cyber space. I was frustrated by this and just decided to come back to it later. So here I am finally coming back to it. And after I finish this, I intend to do another post that actually has some news about what we have been doing the last month. So stay tuned, those of you (most of you) that don't care about my thoughts at all, but just like to hear what's going on. And if you don't care about either of those things, I'm not sure why you're reading my blog in the first place.
A few months ago, I was on my way to pick up my daughter from school and had a very disconcerting experience. I was turning right and as I straightened back out following the turn, my steering wheel made a funny clunking/grinding noise and kept going to the right. I was able to force the car to straighten out in a few seconds but it was obvious that something had just gone very wrong with my steering wheel. Since I was only a few blocks from home and had several little people in the car with me, I decided to try to make it back home with my crippled car. Because I knew I had a problem, I approached my next right turn very cautiously. I slowed way down and turned VERY slowly. A car came up behind me during this process, and the driver promptly made his annoyance at me known. I'm sure he was thinking that I obviously had no business driving a motor vehicle since I couldn't make a simple right turn at a normal speed and without my car jerking crazily. After completing the turn, I let him go on past me so he could be on his way.
This experience made me contemplate how often I might quickly judge someone, show annoyance, and rush on my way--never slowing down enough to find out what is really going on. Is something broken in their life? Could they use my help and compassion rather than my annoyance and judgement? Just as this driver may have shown me more patience and understanding if he had known that my steering wheel was malfunctioning, I can be a more compassionate and helpful person if I slow down and find out what's going on with those around me. I can help them with their problems instead of making it more unpleasant for them.
(Oh, and I did make it home O.K. and then got my van towed to the shop to get the steering wheel repaired.)